Life comes at you fast sometimes.
I stepped away from my social media accounts without much warning. A lot of things happened all at once, and without much warning. I stepped away for some much needed self care and reflection. This didn’t leave any time for writing. Now that things have settled down, I felt I needed to let it out. I want to record all of it, I just needed to find the words.
It all started with an email from our landlord. Every month they would send us a quick note. Usually asking us how we were doing, how the condo was, and giving us the amount on the electric. This one did this, but had a little surprise at the end of it. They were selling the condo to one of neighbors, and we needed to schedule a viewing with him.
At that point we were faced with a tough choice, stay or leave.
We loved our home and the community we had become part of. Yet there were challenges with the idea of staying. The unit was in the high end of our price bracket. It fit our current needs, but we would quickly outgrow the space. We decided to leave the unit and move on. We are moving in with family for now, hoping to get a piece of property by summers end.
There was more in store for us.
In March our thirteen year old boxer, Birdie developed a limp. The leg was tender, and she would cry out when we touched it. We brought her vet, expecting a broken bone, a strained shoulder. She
had a slight heart murmur, but besides that had been healthy.
It was Osteosarcoma.
Osteosarcoma. It is an aggressive form of bone cancer that is a death sentence. One option was amputation. The idea is to separate the cancer from the body. Yet surgery is dangerous, and often the cancer shows up in another part of the body. The other option was palliative care. Mitigate the pain and enjoy her for as long as we can. It was hard, but the right thing to do. It has meant a lot of changes in our home. She needs her medication and special care. Birdie has become the center of things as we enjoy the time we have left with her.
All these changes have made writing difficult. Even when I have free time, I haven’t truly had the heart to write. I have been forcing myself to edit some stories, but my heart hasn’t been it it. It has been hard, but it has been eye opening. The challenges have forced me to think about my future. I have some exciting ideas, that I can’t wait to share with you.
So what do you have going on and what struggles have you been facing? I would love to hear from you.